To get to the heart of this post we need to travel back in a time a bit to when I finally decided to pursue health care as a career. About four years ago, right after I finished my yoga teacher training, I was deeply unsatisfied with my job in the public library system. I found myself constantly googling different career options, weighing the pros and cons of becoming a full-time yoga instructor, and feeling a bit lost. I won’t go too deep into why I chose healthcare because I would like to dedicate an entire post to that subject in the future (hint: it definitely involves yoga). What I do want to talk in this post is why PA.
Once I was completely sold on healthcare, I needed to figure out where I wanted to go with it, right? So, naturally (after narrowing it down to a few options), I turned to YouTube to hear experiences and perspectives from a variety of different people. I was greeted with pre-pa, pa-s, and pa-c girls (and a few guys) posing in their scrubs and white coats, with pearly white smiles, and stethoscopes effortlessly slung around their necks. They made PA’s look awesome. Who the hell wouldn’t want to be a physician assistant?
Six years of schooling, lateral mobility, and plenty of autonomy. I wanted to study medicine, and this is how I wanted to do it. Social media helped me choose my career. I became so involved in the PA community on Instagram and was so pumped by how little negativity there was, by how happy these students and PA-C’s were all the time; they loved their jobs.
Fast forward four years and I’m now in the heart of my surgical tech program and I’ve very carefully curated my life to be a competitive PA-S candidate. But guess what? I don’t want to be a PA anymore.
Ok, so the name of this blog is literally Christina Pre-PA, right? All of my social media accounts have this cute little hospital emoji with the phrase “future PA-C!” attached. But I don’t want to be a PA.
You see, I was too caught up in the fake world of social media to truly delve deeper and figure out what medicine means to me. Within the past year, I joined a few PA and Pre-PA facebook groups and was absolutely horrified by the toxicity, drama, and cyber-bullying that happened regularly in those groups. How could this be? The girls on Instagram and YouTube made it look so positive! But the reality of life is that this exists everywhere. In every profession, in every social circle, in every community; it’s everywhere. And I’m so glad I witnessed it because it allowed me the opportunity to step back, take my rose-colored glasses off, and analyze the profession for what it really is. To truly weigh the pros and cons, and to ask myself, why PA? Why this path? Is this what I really want? Or is this what social media told me that I want?
And the hard honest truth is that it’s not what I really want. I’ve been looking really deep into this and I wouldn’t blast my business out in the open unless I was absolutely positive and I am absolutely positive. What I’ve discovered is that the medical model is not for me. I don’t want to be a PA.
And that leads me to my new plan. Which is terrifying. Because I’m smack in the middle of a program I chose that would allow me to earn my direct patient care hours for PA school. Don’t get me wrong, surgery is fascinating and I’m so freaking excited to scrub, but, it kind of gets in the way of an expedited route to my new end goal: NP school.
Yep, I want to be a freaking nurse. The nursing model makes me feel good. It makes me excited. It makes sense to me. If you’re not familiar with the difference between the nursing and medical model, I will break it down very simply for you. But keep in mind, that it is incredibly complex and these next few sentences can’t possibly summarize the true depth of the models.
The nursing model is a patient-centered practice which focuses on health promotion, disease prevention, health education and counseling, as well as assessments, diagnosis, and treatment plans. The medical model is a disease-centered practice which emphasizes the biologic/pathologic aspects of health, as well as assessments, diagnosis, and treatment. The medical and nursing models are like a Venn Diagram. There is a lot of overlap, but the nursing model ultimately makes so much more sense to me.
So what does that mean for me now? Well, I need to go to nursing school! ARNP’s traditionally must first be RN’s prior to applying to their NP school. Mama didn’t raise no quitter, so I’ll be finishing my ST program and practicing as a CST before nursing school. I will most likely enroll in an accelerated BSN program in the future. There are BSN to NP programs, but I would much rather spend some time working as an RN prior to NP school. I want to dabble in different specialties (although I don’t see myself straying from surgery for too long).
Talk about an identity crisis. This was a super difficult decision for me to make, but ultimately it is the one that makes the most sense to me. The moral of the story is to form your own freaking opinions. There are so many opinions and biases and advertisements constantly hurled at us. Now, more than ever, it is so important to think for yourself, form your own conclusions, and really get to know who you are and what you want.
Until next time!
XOXO
Christina